Archive for the ‘Frustration’ category

Picture- perfect

November 29, 2008

154931394_5b3862f393_mObelix says it all!!

P.S: I am adding a black band to my blog header in order to protest against the terror attacks in Mumbai…

Let us all do this!

The tide is high…

September 20, 2008

Can I hold on?

I am outta my hibernation… But you’d probably see my go back to sleeping again! 😛

Things have been playing in ‘fast forward’ mode in my head….

What does one do when nothing seems to be going right?

To keep thinking positive… When you are in pressure cooker situations?

When your moods swing wildly! And to mention the fact that someone said that mine fluctuate at the rate of 100 per second!

When you are forced to sleep at 12.00 and get up at 4.30 so as to cover up portions?

Rush to coaching classes in the morning at 6.00 and rush to school from there… Come back and rush to class again

….

Just accept the situation?

Not crib?

And keep deluding yourself… Thinking that this will last only 7 months?

For crying out loud!

Does 7 months seem short to anybody? Can any person survive the 7 months if they’re being traumatized?

IF you don’t have the space to do the things you like?

….

Really beats me! 😐

P.S: To all those who think I’m gonna kill myself… I can assure you that that’s not gonna happen!

I haven’t turned into a coward I am not a coward!

….

Peace out! 😐

Viva Voce and Micheal Phelps!

August 17, 2008

Yes, I know its just under 12 hours before my physics quarterlies but I am absolutely saturated with LCR circuits, retentivity, Lens makers formula and the YDSE…

I had just finished with my practicals on Friday… The experiments and all were okay, In all three subjects…

But the worst 15 minutes in those three hours are undoubtedly those disastrous, absolutely tormenting viva sessions… :O

The only thing about vivas is that I can’t stand them….

Having my name being called seems like as though I’m being interviewed by the CBI for some crime committed…

Heres what I do in EVERY viva…

Get all tongue tied and just stare blankly at the teacher’s face…

The questions varying from the special adaptive features of Potomogeton to the terminal voltage being lesser in value than EMF, all I can see is the teacher’s wide eyes scrutinizing me and rubbishing all those answers I attempt to give 😐

Those stupid lizard noises.. (thu thu thu..)

*Buh*

Am I the making of another Hari?? :O

Going to some stuff nicer..

Kudos,  Micheal Phelps!!

An achievement that’d have to be sung like a ballad never heard before!! 🙂

Cheers!

Thank you… ‘friends’

May 31, 2008

If someone had asked me who my freinds were, say around a year back, my list would have been endless!! I could just go on and on…
Now… err….
*ahem*

I wonder: what the bloody hell is wrong with me….
Is it that I can’t manage to get along with anybody?

Some of them just go on and on about the fact that I did not go and meet them when I was in Dubai!!
Well folks, If you can’t take the trouble of coming to a small get-together that I had particularly arranged so I can get to meet you all, I am extremely sorry I couldn’t take out time from the mere two weeks that I was there for…

And yeah… why do some of my other ‘friends’ avoid me??
No, really guys… If you cant’t stand me, I’d rather you say it on my face, than you keep dodging me!!
If you don’t want me around, you might as well let me know….

And really would you call a person who laughs behind your back and bitches about you, your friend? I don’t have to be ‘cool’ and awesome at studies or sports for you to be my friend!!
” Oh, yeah… She’s awful!! Can’t even HIT the ball!!
And she barely manages to pass…. Sheesh”
Yeah, all of you know me better than I know myself…
Thank you for letting me know who I really am!!

The dark fury of anger,
closes my mind to reason.
all around i can see,
hatred, revenge & treason.
The blinding rage has shut my eyes,
my mind resounds with screams & cries;
I do not wait
I retaliate
Burn down the world to ashes
till smoke emanates!

Numb

March 10, 2008

Numb.
For the past four to five months she had been feeling lifeless. Not that nothing was happening in her life. So much was happening that it had started to numb her senses and her completely. She could no longer talk even the sparing words she used to manage. Her answer to everyone’s every question was a mere smile. The smile, that didn’t give out what was going on inside her. Her expressionless face had always been such a boon. An irony in life.
Few who had noticed the recluse who had become an absolute recluse, who asked her to spill her mind out, telling her that keeping things to herself will only add to the built up whatever it was. But, what was she to say?…that nothing was going on in her mind…that her thoughts had gone blank. To everyone she seemed detached but to herself she was numb, more like lifeless…dead. All she could do was stare at the void space which seemed to surround her like a blanket.
She couldn’t express anything at all. She had become numb. Numb to herself and the things that affected her. She watched everything happening to her as though it were a mere movie. Movies never affected her, not even the most emotional and dramatic ones. So she stood there watching everything that was happening to her, like it was all happening to a complete stranger on a movie. Like it didn’t affect her…like it was not her life. She couldn’t feel the happiness when she heard the good news. She couldn’t feel any of her disappointments. She had become numb. When her grandpa whom she loved dearly had passed away, she was too numb even to feel sad. Not even a single tiny little drop of tear. She wondered…was she dead too? The hollow space which she felt inside her was only widening, creating a complete vacuum.
She wanted to shake herself awake. Shake her numbness away, just like the dog which shakes away all the water after it has had its bath. She stood there shaking, just to realize that all the vigorous shaking, in a hope to get back her life was only tiring. Nothing left her or creeped in. She felt numb. Numb, as she waited for it to pass away. Something she had always believed in. She would pass this phase too. Now, all she could do was wait and stare at the void space which seemed to surround her like a blanket.
Numb.