P.S: I am adding a black band to my blog header in order to protest against the terror attacks in Mumbai…

Let us all do this!

*Fly a bright colored kite that has my face painted on it

*Sing in front of a HUGE audience and hear the applause

*Own an orchard

*Buy a giant stuffed polar bear

* Ride on an albatross

*Run on the sea shore with my arms wide open, at dawn

*Visit New Zealand

*Go sky diving

*Whistle, without it sounding like a pressure- cooker

*Prove to the world that I can be what I aspire to be

*Play tennis with Sania Mirza and win 

* Meet Rahul Dravid and go for a piggy back ride!!

* To be in the cockpit of a jet plane

*Meet an Edward Cullen 

* Kick the lab ass’ backside

* Own two horses… One pitch black and the other brown their names being Onyx and Garnet

* Learn how to play basket ball and be good at it!

I am outta my hibernation… But you’d probably see my go back to sleeping again!

Things have been playing in ‘fast forward’ mode in my head….

What does one do when nothing seems to be going right?

To keep thinking positive… When you are in pressure cooker situations?

When your moods swing wildly! And to mention the fact that someone said that mine fluctuate at the rate of 100 per second!

When you are forced to sleep at 12.00 and get up at 4.30 so as to cover up portions?

Rush to coaching classes in the morning at 6.00 and rush to school from there… Come back and rush to class again

….

Just accept the situation?

Not crib?

And keep deluding yourself… Thinking that this will last only 7 months?

…

For crying out loud!

Does 7 months seem short to anybody? Can any person survive the 7 months if they’re being traumatized?

IF you don’t have the space to do the things you like?

….

Really beats me!

P.S: To all those who think I’m gonna kill myself… I can assure you that that’s not gonna happen!

I haven’t turned into a coward I am not a coward!

….

Peace out!

Apparatus:
A single swinging rope hanging from an unknown part of the sky.

Theory:
At the bottom of the bottomless pit    lies all manner of pain and ugliness. On the other side lies the closest thing one can find to happiness.

Note:For true happiness, one must give up one’s material possessions and live the life of a Buddhist monk with a shaved head, dressed in a saffron rag in a mud hut bang in the middle of the Siachen glacier.

Procedure:
1. Pray a little before you begin.
2. Stand 10 feet from the ledge of the bottomless pit.
3. Wait for the swinging rope to come as possible to the edge of the abyss.
4. Take a running leap and grab hold of the oscillating rope just as it begins to swing back to wherever the hell it came from.
5. Ride it safely to the other side.

Result:
Happiness and satisfaction…or the closest one can get to it without actually giving up one’s Ferrari (see theory).

Precautions:
1. Time your leap such that you don’t drop into the abyss thereby sentencing yourself to burn for all eternity.
2. Do nothing to stimulate the sweat glands during the duration of the journey.
3. Do NOT look down or to the northeast.

Note: To the northeast lies the entire cast of Bay watch Hawaii.

Sources of Error:
1. One may make the mistake of reading this experiment.

I had just finished with my practicals on Friday… The experiments and all were okay, In all three subjects…

But the worst 15 minutes in those three hours are undoubtedly those disastrous, absolutely tormenting viva sessions… :O

The only thing about vivas is that I can’t stand them….

Having my name being called seems like as though I’m being interviewed by the CBI for some crime committed…

Heres what I do in EVERY viva…

Get all tongue tied and just stare blankly at the teacher’s face…

The questions varying from the special adaptive features of Potomogeton to the terminal voltage being lesser in value than EMF, all I can see is the teacher’s wide eyes scrutinizing me and rubbishing all those answers I attempt to give

Those stupid lizard noises.. (thu thu thu..)

*Buh*

Am I the making of another Hari?? :O

Going to some stuff nicer..

Kudos,  Micheal Phelps!!

An achievement that’d have to be sung like a ballad never heard before!!

Cheers!

Who teaches spiders which leg to put forward first, when they start walking?

Why is inspiration momentary, while depression is more permanent?

Is it ok to kill a mockingbird if you realize that it is a crow in disguise?

12th GRADE…. Need I say more??

I have hardly completed 3 months in 12th grade, that pressure is mounting up in all propotions! At least 3 tests are held in scool every week… And a test for an hour and a half every sunday followed by classes for 4 hours in coaching classes….

And don’t have misconceptions of any sort…. I go to this coaching centre on Monday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday!!

I’ll just let you know some of the books I am expected to look into:

• Comprehensive chemistry- Grade 11 and 12
• Comprehensive physics- Grade 11 and 12
• Comprehensive Mathematics- Grade 11 and 12
• R.S Agarwal- Grade 11 and 12
• AIEEE maths
• AIEEE physics
• AIEEE chemistry
• O.P Agarwal- Organic chemistry
• R.K Mukerjee-Inorganic chemistry
• Exel with physical chemistry
• HCV part 1 and 2
• IIT Maths
• IIT physics
• IIT chemistry
• Some extra IIT books
• ACE assignments
• Brilliant- assignments
• And then, question papers set by a no. of schools in Bangalore, Chennai, Delhi, Bombay….
• ACE question papers

And how could I forget??

• Pradeep’s biology- Grade 11 and 12
• CET papers in Biology

The irony is that, the ACE ( which is the coaching center) coordinator expects me to take borrow books from the library for the simple reason that he thinks I have the “capability” to do well “wonders”!! *Buh*

GOD, please save me….

P.S: I have forgotten to mention about the NCERT books…. they are supposedly “VERY IMPORTANT”
And read English.. to put yourself to bed!!

I wonder: what the bloody hell is wrong with me….
Is it that I can’t manage to get along with anybody?

Some of them just go on and on about the fact that I did not go and meet them when I was in Dubai!!
Well folks, If you can’t take the trouble of coming to a small get-together that I had particularly arranged so I can get to meet you all, I am extremely sorry I couldn’t take out time from the mere two weeks that I was there for…

And yeah… why do some of my other ‘friends’ avoid me??
No, really guys… If you cant’t stand me, I’d rather you say it on my face, than you keep dodging me!!
If you don’t want me around, you might as well let me know….

And really would you call a person who laughs behind your back and bitches about you, your friend? I don’t have to be ‘cool’ and awesome at studies or sports for you to be my friend!!
” Oh, yeah… She’s awful!! Can’t even HIT the ball!!
And she barely manages to pass…. Sheesh”
Yeah, all of you know me better than I know myself…
Thank you for letting me know who I really am!!

The dark fury of anger,
closes my mind to reason.
all around i can see,
hatred, revenge & treason.
The blinding rage has shut my eyes,
my mind resounds with screams & cries;
I do not wait
I retaliate
Burn down the world to ashes
till smoke emanates!

It gets interesting how different people console you, but I was really surprised on how many people use the age old, most used saying – “Everything happens for your own good.” Sometimes it gets so annoying that I feel like hitting the consoler, but I know he wishes the best for me.

To be frank I was a pretty big believer in that saying and started looking at things differently, and true enough things turned out good. I was delighted and used the same saying to console others. But now when I sit and think about it, I realize everything happens as it should. We compromise saying to ourselves, everything happens for our own good. Something good happens and you say to yourself only because that bad happened earlier I am in this position, Aha, the saying is true. But after a few days bad repeats itself and the whole cycle repeats itself.

Will the cycle change if you stop thinking positive? May be… But I don’t’ get the point. Lets not think positive, lets think confident. Bad happened and it is definitely bad, so feel bad. Good happened, feel good. Enjoy it. There is nothing that defines positive nature. Do you think people who boast about their positive nature don’t even have a pinch of doubt and anxiety, they sure do.

Sometimes it also seems being negative is better. If you are never confident of success, you always hope for the worst and even if it turns a little good you are happy. Its better than bragging about your positive nature and confidence and finally losing miserably and becoming the laughing stock.I made many a mistake in haste or in pride, I only wish I don’t make many more. Zero more mistakes is an impossible ask, None can ever achieve it, but high goals can help.